I want to move on from this situation. Strike four and I'm still here? How pathetic am I to keep on giving him chances. How many time do I have to hurt myself to realize that it's just me who is hurting. If he cared, he wouldn't repeat the problems. This is becoming a dilemma.
Is it worth it?
I've been asking myself that question for the past few days.
How will this situation get better?
Only time will tell.
I want to continue to love him, but once I put my guard down... he will have the mind set that it is okay to do what he did all over again. It's not right. I thought finally in my life, I found someone different. To love me and be truthful to me. That's one of the main things I cannot stand... is being lied to. Losing my trust is something really hard to gain back. Therefore, I hope it was all worth it for him to lie to me.
This is the part where we recover.
I fucked up. You fucked up. But don’t ever say I didn’t love you. That’s all I ever did.
donna@mail.postmanllc.net
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