Life is full of shit.

          Everyone have someone to lean on majority of the time. Where am I at? I depend on my boyfriend but he's barely there. Situations so small can become so big in an instant. I don't understand. I really need to move out but I can't even take care of myself yet. Life is tough. Sometime honestly just want to give up on everything (life). I know I can reach the topic with just some support in the background but I can't even get that. My best friend (Vincent Nguyen) is locked up and now I have no one.  You have to pick yourself back up first before you help someone else out. In my situation my siblings are shit, my family is crap, no one will help you out even if you're in need. MY FAMILY WILL BLACK MAIL YOU! Don't you ever wish you can just disappear?  Be in a world of your own? Do whatever you want? Eat whatever you like? A "perfect" little world? Fuck "Everything is going to be OKAY" because in reality NOTHING WILL BE OKAY! Overall, this world is cold and blood. Everything and everyone is our enemy. My parents is not included in this situation because they have been helping me since birth.

          It's amazing how many different emotions one person can make you feel. One day, you're on top of the world, with a smile on your face and a warmth in your heart that makes you believe great things are going to happen. And then, in a second, all of that can change. So you don't know what to feel. You're left with a mess that only that one person can clean up. It's chaotic. ; Nobody really cares about your existence but they will pretend. Oh sure, they will pretend. But why...? because they need people to (pretend to) care about them, too. WHY???? it is simple. Human beings are fragile creatures with needy desires for foolish emotions like love. and in the end we are all alone because the people who told us they cared lied because they are too are human, selfish and desperate to feel loved. 

    MIND SPEAKING:      I honestly, don't want to stay much longer. What's that point! I want to give up and never come back. I want to just run away and just be on my own! I don't want to live in a world that's fucked up as  this one. I'm done! Please, somehow, someway. Please just take my life away. I don't want to do this anymore. I don't want to live anymore. I really don't. This world is really fucked up. Young girls getting pregnant, young couples getting married, and everything is just FUCKED UP!

We want a lot of shit in life, but sucks because we can't have it all. 

LOL "Fuck you, nobody asked for your opinion."

"Curiosity often leads to trouble."