I'm not happy anymore.

Hello, it's me. 
It has been a while my dear friend.

How are you feeling?
Hmmm, I honestly don't know how I'm feeling. 
What more can I ask for? 
Deep down, I feel like I should just die. I'm not happy and nothing is making me happy.

My boyfriend? yeah, right. him. 
I feel nothing. Nothing at all... Maybe sadness, but that's just it. When I step back and take a good look of everything. I SHOULD be happy. I SHOULD live a normal life. 
but then... 
I'm not normal. I'm not okay. I'm not happy.
I feel insane. 

Life is tough right now.