People are always telling me to smile, like smiling is going to just take away all the hurt and all the pain…well I’ve tried that. I’ve tried hiding my sorrows, and covering the sadness in smiles…and what I’ve learned is that when it hurts this much inside, your heart always has a way of showing it, no matter how many masks you wear. No one will ever understand my stories. I tell my stories with deep passion, digging underneath my bone as I make out each word. Everyone has their own ideas on how things could've been approached  Looking at the facts and details, upon how things can be said without pointing fingers at one another. "Tears are one of the most meaningful liquids, know why? Cause out of many liquids here in the world, only tears can explain the real meaning of pain."

Life: I'm tired of my parents going through my things. Yes, twenty-years-old mean nothing to them because I'm the "BABY" of the family tree. But still, I need my privacy and peace. My room is all I have to myself and where I have a peace of mind. My goal now is just apply to a CSU next month and move the hell out. I going to save up to make this happen. With or without the help of others. This have gotten to the point where I just wish I never wake up from my sleep. I need to be free from this little box that I'm so trapped in. A lot of people looks at me and start to feel sorry for my state of being. I'm not saying my parents are horrible at raising me, but just the fact they are way too overly protected. Sorry, but they just need to learn to  loosen up a little or I'll be gone for sure. 

My love life is still the same. I'm trying my best to change my view on how I approach things. I hope my lover can see that. I'm always the bad guy that's trying to mend things. Look at how odd that sentence came out as. A bad guy... trying to mend (fix)  things. When I cry about any problems, I run to him. When I have a wonderful day, I run to him. When my day is gloomy and filled with hatred, I still run to him. He's my better half but he doesn't see what he's putting me through sometime. No matter what, I still stand by him 24/7. Through thick and thin. I take the bad and the good. Who would do those thing? I'm not that girl who is stupid for love, right? I'm not saying all these things in a negative perspective but I shouldn't be the only person in this "two people relationship" to change things for the better. Only time can tell where we are heading. 
Note: I love you, please believe me when I say I do. Through thick and thin as we stated at the beginning of the relationship. I know we have our crazy moments where we just want to run away together or even from each other. You told me to "stay strong and things will work out eventually." Therefore, you should be trusting your own words. 

"Life is full of challenges, but these challenges are only given to you because God knows your faith is strong enough to get through them." - Hold on and be strong.