They think they could pull you down. All I want was a guy that would be there when I'm down/upset. Make me smile when im in the worst position possible. Stay by my side even though we're arguing.

'As long as you're happy. Everything is fine with me'

Last night FJ didn't text at all. I guess my text didn't go through Woke up in the middle of the night still thinking about him. From my point of view I could kinda tell he's losing feeling for me or just trying to push me away. If we weren't meant to be in the first place then ill just have to let it be. I don't want to end up hurting myself like how I did in the past.

Can't deal with stupid stuff anymore. Its a new year. Only 14 days into it and Im already getting myself into trouble. I see that he's a really nice guy and like I said I change. New year = new start. Hopefully he could see that and trust me or give me a change. But he's going to act like how he's acting now 1/14/10 then I don't know what to say.

Hopefully he'll make the right decision and be happy with it.

T.B.C

Part 2

i don't know what to do anymore. It's okay.. i guess everything happens for a reason. I'm done crying for a guy. Cause for some stupid reason i'm crying over him already. I know. Karma is a bitch and it's what im getting back. i just want him to see that i'm not like how i was before even though Kevin told him what happen. And i didn't even do shit to him to so something to him like that. OHHH WELL.

Fake a smile. They won't bother you. :)